There's a conflict mainly because I suspect you need to figure out exactly what it means to live for God ....not as TITLE ONE CHRISTIAN
but what does it mean...
for you.... to live for God beyond a theoretical premise.....it sound like all that's done has distanced or alienated you or provided some stereotypical composite of what Christianity means to substantiate this misconception to live in the light of God means there is no opportunity... to be ....or to be you
for me my relationship with GOd has made me..more of me than Iwould have done for myself
I don't hear personal relationship or intimacy as much as I hear concepts ...the hermit idea ...is not realistic
..even in Christian culture of today..leaders... pastors and singers and rock singers and poets and actors ..families.... etc etc who ..openly love God and are in community with each other as well as universally ..and not residing in..hermitages
It's ALL about spreading the WORD...whatever or however..it's makes the most sense for one spiritually..the way you do that may not look the same as the way I do that
I dunno..can you conceptualize God as a relationship? IMHO you have be willing to be in intimacy
with God.. and also begin to cultivate in your heart ....a living faith. That's been my journey...
So rather than only focusing on ""living for God""" ..you may do well to learn to seek God as you would seek maybe an earthly friend or man you care very much for or at least want to know more about. Ask God
If you are sincere.... God will meet you more than half way in ways you never thought of and it will become a love relationship
you can't "do you" and still live for God.
wellll......try actually living life without God....
and then come back and contemplate that statement
this song byJoni Mitchell
You don't know what you've got till it's gone
they paved paradise and put up a parking lot
to me ..that's what
substituting earthy life for God ..that's what it sounds like you are thinking
it doesn't mean to not enjoy those gifts because they were created for us by God ...as long as they don't become your God
Jesus's intent
“
The thief comes only to steal, and
kill, and
destroy;
I came that they might have life, and
might have it abundantly” (John 10:10).
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My radical suggestion? Forget the book...for now and begin reading some of the praise reports on this board.....and in the bible
Song of Songs in the bible is great
I am black and beautful oh daughters of Jerusalem
and Proverbs 31 starting with verse 10