There I said it.... I kinda need to get some perspective on this and my best sisterfriend is somewhere unreachable so um... here I am....
So went to dinner at a restaurant for my dad's birthday. All fine and good.... I suppose I should have seen something coming when my mom made a remark about getting a Mother's Day card for the pastor's wife and not for my grandmother (I sorta didn't know I was going to see her on Mother's Day but I still should have had one ready... I rake responsibility for that.... gotta fix that....)
So dinner finishes and there talking and then my mom asks me about my income tax check. I said that I had been got that money back. What she was referring to was some scholarship money that I was going to use to pay my dad back for getting my car fixed ($700). I got the scholarship money back at the beginning of May and I kinda spent it catching up on various things. I knew my dad wouldn't say anything because he (and my mom) know I'm in school and they're helping me out, e.g., big car repairs. I pay for the maintenance, e.g., oil changes, full insurance, etc. So my mom just starts coming at me about it, saying that I should have at least told my dad that I wouldn't be able to pay him back right away and I fully admit to this and I say that I'm glad she said this in my dad's presence because if had been just me and her, she would have been close to cussing me out about it....
So the conversation escalates in the restaurant (but again, not too loud because my mom is a lady and she raised me to be a lady so not to embarrass ourselves ) and she starts saying I'm guilty and she has "great intuitive powers" and I say I'm not guilty I'm angry for being accused of being deceptive. Then she starts talking about who I put in front of them (e.g., church pastors) esp. since they are helping me through school and I say I don't put anyone in front of them and then she says that she knows I put money in the Mother's Day card for the pastor's wife and so I said that I spent more money on her (my mother) for Mother's Day and put the receipt in the card to prove it. And so she said that the Mother's Day card for the pastor's wife should have gone to my dad to pay him back. I put $10 in the Mother's Day card for the pastor's wife. The pastor's wife has been in my life for almost 20 years and at times, has been more than a mom to me and I knew I was gonna see her on Mother's Day. And on top of that, I didn't put any money in my dad's card because I was gonna get him something next week when I get paid. Yes, I could have managed my money better and thought ahead. I simply didn't do that and I take responsibility for that. She also said that if I had not paid for the car when I said I would, they would have come to repossess it. I said that I don't own the car (my dad bought it for me. It is in his name). It always comes back to that.
Then my mom says that she has to speak up for her husband (my father) because he's a good guy and he's mine. When she said that ("He's mine"), I mean what do you say to that? So that's when my dad basically said to my mom "let's go" and they got up and left. I'm not trying to compete with my mom for my dad's attention. I started saying that I am not trying to take attention and that I'm sorry I was born (yeah, I can get dramatic sometimes!). After they left I just sat in the booth crying. I was too hurt to be embarrassed.
As my mom and I are going back and forth, my dad is sitting there with this blank expression on his face (this is usually the pattern). I also know that I'm a daddy's girl and I can ask my dad for anything and he'll do it for me if it is in his power. I am his only daughter. I'm not perfect, but I've never had a pregnancy scare. They never had to come bail me out of jail. I live in my own apartment by myself. Never been on drugs. Never been with a bunch of men (how about none?). Never embarrassed them or brought shame to the family name. I'm going to school getting a DOCTORATE. The FIRST DOCTOR in my family. All glory to the Lord Jesus Christ for that. But does this mean anything to my mom?
Again, this is not the first time that this line of argument has occurred. It's the SAME PATTERN.
So went to dinner at a restaurant for my dad's birthday. All fine and good.... I suppose I should have seen something coming when my mom made a remark about getting a Mother's Day card for the pastor's wife and not for my grandmother (I sorta didn't know I was going to see her on Mother's Day but I still should have had one ready... I rake responsibility for that.... gotta fix that....)
So dinner finishes and there talking and then my mom asks me about my income tax check. I said that I had been got that money back. What she was referring to was some scholarship money that I was going to use to pay my dad back for getting my car fixed ($700). I got the scholarship money back at the beginning of May and I kinda spent it catching up on various things. I knew my dad wouldn't say anything because he (and my mom) know I'm in school and they're helping me out, e.g., big car repairs. I pay for the maintenance, e.g., oil changes, full insurance, etc. So my mom just starts coming at me about it, saying that I should have at least told my dad that I wouldn't be able to pay him back right away and I fully admit to this and I say that I'm glad she said this in my dad's presence because if had been just me and her, she would have been close to cussing me out about it....
So the conversation escalates in the restaurant (but again, not too loud because my mom is a lady and she raised me to be a lady so not to embarrass ourselves ) and she starts saying I'm guilty and she has "great intuitive powers" and I say I'm not guilty I'm angry for being accused of being deceptive. Then she starts talking about who I put in front of them (e.g., church pastors) esp. since they are helping me through school and I say I don't put anyone in front of them and then she says that she knows I put money in the Mother's Day card for the pastor's wife and so I said that I spent more money on her (my mother) for Mother's Day and put the receipt in the card to prove it. And so she said that the Mother's Day card for the pastor's wife should have gone to my dad to pay him back. I put $10 in the Mother's Day card for the pastor's wife. The pastor's wife has been in my life for almost 20 years and at times, has been more than a mom to me and I knew I was gonna see her on Mother's Day. And on top of that, I didn't put any money in my dad's card because I was gonna get him something next week when I get paid. Yes, I could have managed my money better and thought ahead. I simply didn't do that and I take responsibility for that. She also said that if I had not paid for the car when I said I would, they would have come to repossess it. I said that I don't own the car (my dad bought it for me. It is in his name). It always comes back to that.
Then my mom says that she has to speak up for her husband (my father) because he's a good guy and he's mine. When she said that ("He's mine"), I mean what do you say to that? So that's when my dad basically said to my mom "let's go" and they got up and left. I'm not trying to compete with my mom for my dad's attention. I started saying that I am not trying to take attention and that I'm sorry I was born (yeah, I can get dramatic sometimes!). After they left I just sat in the booth crying. I was too hurt to be embarrassed.
As my mom and I are going back and forth, my dad is sitting there with this blank expression on his face (this is usually the pattern). I also know that I'm a daddy's girl and I can ask my dad for anything and he'll do it for me if it is in his power. I am his only daughter. I'm not perfect, but I've never had a pregnancy scare. They never had to come bail me out of jail. I live in my own apartment by myself. Never been on drugs. Never been with a bunch of men (how about none?). Never embarrassed them or brought shame to the family name. I'm going to school getting a DOCTORATE. The FIRST DOCTOR in my family. All glory to the Lord Jesus Christ for that. But does this mean anything to my mom?
Again, this is not the first time that this line of argument has occurred. It's the SAME PATTERN.