PeanutButterandHoney
New Member
Hello beauties,
I make a lot of threads (I apologize in advance for my 'pointless threads' and for any offenses this thread may cause).
Anyway, here it goes erplexed (I feel just like this):
I am a yr post.
I will admit that I have had to undergoe a mental transition in this transition as well.
I have come to realize that I don't have that "curly" hair or that "easy hair" that is soft and glides easily thought my combs.
Not gonna happen.
In the process of the transition, it is a process of me attempting to embrace what I have and educate myself on ways to nurture what I have.
I used to be one of those people who relaxed because I thought that straight, long hair was more beautiful than afro-textured hair.
After lurking the forums, I have did a complete turn around.
It's still a struggle, but I am making it.
I have always had "long hair" (well, what most ppl would consider long)
The past week, I took the plunge and straightened my hair and saw my BSL, thick and healthy hair swingin' and shinin'. Not to mention, I had cut 3 inches, so I would be approaching MBL had I not cut.
I was getting compliments left and right and the attention from men is just out of this world.
These were compliments and looks that I didnt get with my bun, or other "natural styles"
So, I feel like I took two steps forward, in this year in transitioning and in this week alone, took three steps backwards.
I worry about looking pretty. Who doesn't?
Anyway, I am just wondering does it get better. I went to wash and did my pre-poo and saw my kinks come back and a part of my heart got really sad.
Okay, Im going to be honest and say I even cried.
I cried because I felt like I was going back to mentally where I used to be. I cried because I loved the attention and looks
I cried because I felt resentful of the struggle to detangle and make the NG look 'presentable' by coporate standards.
I cried because I am almost tired of "transitioning".
My plan was to transition for two years or until i was SL stretched with Natural hair, but I don't know ladies.
I am feeling like I need to piss or get off the pot.
I though after the 6-9 month milestone it was going to get easier both physically and mentally?
Anyone else go through this? Is this that bad? Y is my mind doing this?
Any comments, concerns, whatever are appreciated. Am I just not strong enuff to be a natural 4-something?
I make a lot of threads (I apologize in advance for my 'pointless threads' and for any offenses this thread may cause).
Anyway, here it goes erplexed (I feel just like this):
I am a yr post.
I will admit that I have had to undergoe a mental transition in this transition as well.
I have come to realize that I don't have that "curly" hair or that "easy hair" that is soft and glides easily thought my combs.
Not gonna happen.
In the process of the transition, it is a process of me attempting to embrace what I have and educate myself on ways to nurture what I have.
I used to be one of those people who relaxed because I thought that straight, long hair was more beautiful than afro-textured hair.
After lurking the forums, I have did a complete turn around.
It's still a struggle, but I am making it.
I have always had "long hair" (well, what most ppl would consider long)
The past week, I took the plunge and straightened my hair and saw my BSL, thick and healthy hair swingin' and shinin'. Not to mention, I had cut 3 inches, so I would be approaching MBL had I not cut.
I was getting compliments left and right and the attention from men is just out of this world.
These were compliments and looks that I didnt get with my bun, or other "natural styles"
So, I feel like I took two steps forward, in this year in transitioning and in this week alone, took three steps backwards.
I worry about looking pretty. Who doesn't?
Anyway, I am just wondering does it get better. I went to wash and did my pre-poo and saw my kinks come back and a part of my heart got really sad.
Okay, Im going to be honest and say I even cried.
I cried because I felt like I was going back to mentally where I used to be. I cried because I loved the attention and looks
I cried because I felt resentful of the struggle to detangle and make the NG look 'presentable' by coporate standards.
I cried because I am almost tired of "transitioning".
My plan was to transition for two years or until i was SL stretched with Natural hair, but I don't know ladies.
I am feeling like I need to piss or get off the pot.
I though after the 6-9 month milestone it was going to get easier both physically and mentally?
Anyone else go through this? Is this that bad? Y is my mind doing this?
Any comments, concerns, whatever are appreciated. Am I just not strong enuff to be a natural 4-something?